Hello Again, Hello!

A very good friend of mine pointed out the other day that it had been quite a long time since I had posted on my blog. I have to admit, my dear blog, that I have been neglecting you. I think about you every now and then but the effort to get together has seemed like too much for me. A little five month hiatus has probably been a good thing for the both of us.

What have I been doing since August 22nd you ask? Well......

First: I have a new job. Yes, I finally felt that I had done my time in the trenches of floor nursing hell, so I applied and was rewarded with a shiny new job. I now work in Invasive Cardiology. To all you lay people out there, that means I work in the area where they do heart catheterizations. However, I work in a small sub department called Electrophysiology. Basically, we do pacemaker/defibrillator implants and fix (hopefully) peoples' hearts that are beating the wrong way.

It is definitely less stressful than being a floor nurse, but does come with its own stresses. The main stress is that my job is basically to sedate people to the point that they're asleep without suppressing their drive to breathe. In other words, "Put 'em to sleep, but don't kill 'em." The hard part about it is that there are hardly any rules to follow. Some little old ladies are zonked out for two hours off of one milligram of Versed, while you can pump other little old ladies full of narcotic cocktails and they still want to talk to the doctor from under the sterile sheets.

Second: I have been adjusting to my new schedule. I was working night shift before, and now I work four ten-hour days. I get up at five in the morning, get home around six, make dinner, relax, and go to bed. On those four days, there is not much time for blogging. I do have three days off. Which have been sucked dry with-

Third: Holidays. Every year, beginning around Halloween, I become a neurotic mess. Let me explain. I enjoy the day of the holiday. But all the days leading up to the holiday.....not so much. This seasonal dread of mine began many, many, years ago. I have divorced parents and deciding what to do and where to go and wanting to make everyone happy tears me apart. Add to that mix a husband with divorced parents and now we are really torn.

Also, I just feel like it's all gotten out of hand. I don't even have children and still managed to spend $800 on Christmas this year. That is RIDICULOUS! Gifts should be for children under the age of twenty-five. I am approaching my forties and my parents still spend hundreds of dollars on me. While it is exciting to scuttle home with my loot, I really don't need any of it.

Last: A whole lot of nothing. Tommy and I have been laying low trying to save money that somehow still disappears at an alarming rate. I have been keeping my stress level as low as possible so I don't have to go back on mental meds. That has been working well and now I only lose my mind and go into crying fits once or twice a month. My darling husband, he loves me anyway.


Future Plans for 2010

This year I want to find activities/hobbies I can enjoy alone or with Tommy. Now that I have a better schedule at work it will be easier to plan. I also need to work on losing about 500,000 pounds that I gained in the last six years but I want a miracle that makes them all go away in 8 weeks. If you have any miracles, send them my way.

And, dear blog, I promise not to neglect you so much in the future. You are my favorite cyber-therapist.